Friday, December 9, 2022

46.1

gifts from my mother :

90% of lyrics to 90's country radio =
     forever memorized
a penchant for station wagons
a commitment to not rot on the vine β€”
   πŸ‡ critical thinking
   πŸ‡ spirituality
an aversion to the 
    word
    role
    ceremony making one a * wife *
a full-on domestic wheelhouse
v conversational w/ strangers


teacher : i have work to do

    & i’m doing it
so keep teaching me
soaking up your nurture
fill my tank, teacher 


if i woke up her :

i'd take off the mask
    face it all
    pull-back, tuck
look & see
    "cataracts :
    inability to see ahead with joy
    dark future
    life is eternal and filled with joy."
        - louise hay πŸ‘Ό
i’d go to a treatment center spa place β€”
    get 
β€” you know β€”
    get tons of bodywork
    & get into therapy
        find a way to really get into it all
be curious about the mechanics of life
+
trousers
+
tops
+
a hand-carved wooden walking cane
fiber arts revival / rehab thru quilting demons


aging & the beverly hills of it all :

a remnant from the hollow years
    botched under-eye filler dissolved
broken talons untouched through the XC move
    ! shape up !
15 minute chair massage
     4 the thing living in my back


this also means :

i should learn how to quilt
health is my new vice


*


dreaming of eels, maroon & yellow
they keep outgrowing their tanks
want to be together in a realllly big tank
wait, that doesn't work either
separate & larger; them / their tanks
they won't stop growing

how to re-wild domesticated eels ?
overthinking it, stop it
there are no tops on the tanks
they will figure it out
never was your problem


*


tom, my shamanic practitioner, does psychic surgery, removing the wet concrete creature & its tentacles wrapped around my 2nd chakra; tendrils up into my ear drums, into the hinge of my jaw β€” never was my belief system, no matter how deep inside it was shoved; pumped; swallowed; to love is to witness without the weight of what i would do, as that is what i have asked to experience; agency shines …. Slithers


to work is to generate aligned ideas
requires desire & exchanging energy


while the sun is my teacher, tom is an excellent light-worker :

2 Comments:

At 12/19/2022 4:12 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Amen. We’re our mothers, grandmothers, great grandmothers. Evolution comes through digging deeply, shedding layers of ancestral oppression, breaking toxic cycles with self love and a whole lot of weed. And celebrating the fact that we can choose ourselves without guilt.🌹

 
At 12/20/2022 9:17 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

https://www.anothermag.com/fashion-beauty/14347/bjork-ocean-vuong-in-conversation-another-magazine-aw22

 

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