Tuesday, January 24, 2023

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Girl Mess 

Shine the light of consciousness on your pockets of discord 
    Elbow grease works wonders

The American Buffalo is actually a bison; before we murdered them they modeled walking through the storm


Circumnavigation is spinning around in madness when you know what you need to do and still wonโ€™t touch or feel it


Hurt people hurt _____

    Survivors

        Nervous

            Systems 

 

New York one whole week when I didn't plan to:


Been busy breaking in cowboy boots bought in Los Angeles


My daily step average has doubled since my move


Small sore on top of right toe because the boot breaking in moved from instep to vamp to toe medallion heel, toe, heal toe


You can sabotage yourself by staying too long or running too early. Responsibly tending to your work helps close the chasm between extremes. The middle path is not called settling. If you're being true, care surfaces.


Rules calcify us! Clean up the beats you move to. Edit. 

 

Stay true, radically on top of you


Walking and thinking and eating and not sleeping sleeping are magical tools


I nearly walked away from a renovation Iโ€™m leading. I was afraid I was feeding the elephant in the room ๐Ÿฅœ as opposed to gently squeezing it through the battle-worn front door that the building had been saying theyโ€™d replace, but โ€”


My parents are doing the same triangulation dance to label me Elephant, but โ€”


A miracle is a timeline collapsing in โ€”a  false paradigm falling down because and in support of A NEW POV


Otherwise we spin out and those facade panels come down too easily
    • Missing babies
    • Farm misses me
    • The Blair Witch Project
      • The old farmhouse looks like that house at the end
    • Gold Leather Pants
    • Dialogues des Carmรฉlites
      • Gold ceiling cheap seats

    • That head against the wall so water ran down / wanna lick drops / rain all month

    • Tamarind cauliflower (pregnancy)
    • Told Peonia a story about a guy I used to know โ€” then he walked into Tamarind
    • Doรฑa Leova healing session ~ โ‚
    • Mussels w/ leeks


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    Sunday, January 22, 2023

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    Sunday, January 15, 2023

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    Wednesday, January 11, 2023

    1.11.23

     ๐ŸŒท today was an apex of begin again energy ๐ŸŒท

    ๐ŸŒท quantum leaps in my private practice ๐Ÿ‘ฏ

    ๐ŸŒป

    ๐ŸŒค

    ๐ŸŒฅ

    ๐ŸŒฆ

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    Saturday, January 7, 2023

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    Living in the space where the biggest boulder shifted and the dampness is prime for germination. Shall sprout after a bit of sun. I don't think they're creepy, but they will crawl away. Some prefer darkness over light. This truth provokes balance if we can sit with it. See ourselves in it. Sit integration. In meditation: Stillness is growth.



    Unconditional (self) love. Work that works. This work is mothering turned inside-out. We can know a thing, and then we can really Grโ‚w > Gโ > Knโ€w > Shโœฟw



    DATA > INFORMATION > KNOWLEDGE > WISDOM



    I moved it

    Aware of the shadow

    One thing leads to another

    Rungs of a ladder, or leaves on a twisting vine
    Thick stalk, but I'm not horny, u r



    โ˜‰FL*WER

    sunflower



    I remember being so self-conscious about my stretched out postpartum bellybutton when I started taking lovers. Each new lover licked it, lapped it up like they needed it. They do. We all crave getting back to the place where it seemed to start. Under the scab, in the jelly.



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    Searching for my treasure, I work with omens. There's usually a symbol I use as a mile marker, a sign that I'm on the 'right' path. These symbols pick me. For a long time it was a star (lunar). Then it was a butterfly. Next a yellow taxi cab. And, at the airport, I realize it's now a sun with rays. Runshine. Mothersons.



    Man in lounge in sweatshirt with painted sun on left shoulder. Man seated next to me, ball cap with embroidered sun. Driving, they're everywhere. Man darts into traffic wearing full sunflower sweatsuit. Correlated extension. Walking and more, everywhere. In Los Angeles, but this is something. Morning writing this at Silverlake coffee shop. Barista wearing Grand Canyon sweatshirt with large sun shining across the divide. Woman walks in with different sun-embroidered ball cap.



    Mothering and the expectations on mothering are the wound from our orbiting womb boulder, all take and no give, no flexibility unless you are a bad bad bb. Something here about shining a light / solar power / divine masculine as if it's all that simple BUT CAN IT BE

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    FLUUUUU 4 DAZE

    So hot I shake with chills. Legs drip sweat. Rivers behind knees, between legs. Head hurts. Lots. Top of head wants to be cut out. I feel a black sun sitting on my crown chakra. Black sun throbbing relentlessly. Pulsating like the refrigerator buzzing throughout this concrete home. I'm crashing. Soaking up the off-ness? Shedding too. I work to send light up through the black sun, my head, crown. I want to lift it up, take it off, open it up. Can barely move. I hallucinate extra when I'm sick like this. But I break through the center. A channel. The dark spikes remain. I think they're supposed to. The universal language spans the spectrum, and mothering, at least they insist, is loving unconditionally. Who?



    I come to + cum 2 knowing =

    LOS ANGELES HAS BEEN TRYING TO TEACH ME THE NECESSARY DARKNESS



    Thx U other teacher I've dissed hard + maybe have a crush on cos I do that

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    Sunday, January 1, 2023

    51

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    IT'S A MIRAGE THAT Yโ‚U MUST GRโW Yโ€UR BUSINESS SโœฟLโš›๏ธŽ, SLโ˜ฎ๏ธŽWLY

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